I should be in bed.

It's a quarter to ten. I'm tired, borderline sleepy, yet I don't want to get in bed. I could blame my reluctance on the chatter in my head - there's a lot of it tonight as my personalities and I are all abuzz with the many things going on in my life now. Nothing earth … Continue reading I should be in bed.

Human BE-Ing

Human: noun = thing, object.  Being: verb = doing something. We're three weeks into the "new year".  The gyms are crowded, as are the many health food stores, the outer aisles at the grocery stores, and the "healthier" fast food places or restaurants. I imagine prescriptions for Chantix and it's cousins are up, as are … Continue reading Human BE-Ing

Monumental “Ah ha” Moment – I have found my “Gift”

Funny what pain does to me. I'm sure I've written it before, so forgive me if you've read this, but my headaches most often lead to inspiration. Not sure why but the pain takes me to a higher plane - I tend to have BIG FEELINGS when the headache fairy is trying her best to … Continue reading Monumental “Ah ha” Moment – I have found my “Gift”

Interlude.

Sigh.  I saw this cartoon YEARS ago and it's stuck with me ever since. It sums up my thoughts on how most therapy should work. Well, maybe not exactly, but close enough. I mean, I spent time in therapy - I went in with two stipulations. Number one, no drugs. I was self-medicating enough as … Continue reading Interlude.

There are shapes forming in the fog.

How much is it worth to you to have someone who would stop you in your bullshit and walk you through doing what it was you "had" to do? Scenario one: you are a (insert Network Marketing business here) consultant. You know you need to make five cold calls or introductions today in order to … Continue reading There are shapes forming in the fog.

I’ll tell you what you DON’T need…the GIFT idea processing continues.

And that's another freakin' self-help book. No more work sheets, no more vision exercises. Those items have their place for sure, but at this point, I've read so many they're all starting to blend together in my mind. If you've done one "close your eyes and envision your best life", you've done them all. My … Continue reading I’ll tell you what you DON’T need…the GIFT idea processing continues.

No seriously, why am I here?

This is another post in which I'm publicly sharing my processing process - I process things through the written word. Sort of a free writing exercise with a specific topic in mind, and where I pay attention to maintaining some sort of structure or format.  Feel free to skip it :-).    Reluctantly I read … Continue reading No seriously, why am I here?

And then this happened. (Vacation slides, the final shots)

Summer, 1992. I flew home from college for the last time. An unremarkable trip, one of many plane rides I'd taken in my then, twenty-four years of life.  Got home, got settled back into a routine, again, nothing remarkable. Till one day, I found myself driving by the airport. I had an anxiety attack. The … Continue reading And then this happened. (Vacation slides, the final shots)

Belize, life at a costal resort. (Vacation slides, part three)

My trip to Belize was split between two types of resorts,  the environmentalist's dream at duPlooy's Jungle Lodge at the beginning, and the beach lover's paradise of Robert's Grove Beach Resort in Placencia at the end.  I enjoy getting to know people - how they think, live, what they believe in, their dreams and goals, … Continue reading Belize, life at a costal resort. (Vacation slides, part three)

Damned one way or the other.

If I: get good grades speak "properly" like science, math, classic literature pursue higher (and higher) levels of education / knowledge prefer classical music play and enjoy chess apply my knowledge of etiquette dress stylishly strive for upper management and beyond have good credit display a substantial amount of wealth enjoy going to the theater … Continue reading Damned one way or the other.