Read a lengthy article via one of my favorite blogs (Ends and Beginnings) not too long ago (click HERE). By the end of the article, my fear, mistrust, and sadness rose to the highest levels they've been since elementary school when the TV mini-series Roots aired (1977) and sparked racial tension at school I was ten years old … Continue reading Another Glimpse Behind the Curtain…
Not sure if this qualifies as an eating disorder or not, but I can officially declare that I am over eating. Not "over-eating" as in I'm eating past my comfort level, although I often find that I do that as well. No, I mean, I'm over the act of eating. I lost my taste for … Continue reading And We’re Done Here
Oh yes, so we left off with me explaining how my recent bout of anxiety attacks is none other than my Divinity giving me a "thunk on the head" that I need to do better with my mental / emotional health. I've let my empathy run me over and it's left me floundering in other … Continue reading Okay, now where was I?
I'm beginning to think my Morning Pages routine has usurped my Blog in terms of where I go to process my life. Used to be I'd post my inner ramblings (edited of course) here whenever the words demanded release, or I needed to "think". Since entering the 8th month of daily Morning Pages, I've noticed … Continue reading Where have the words gone?
Random TEDx talk I watched this morning as I was trying to squelch this growing unease. I'm at home, having had a most uncomfortable morning of symptoms without connection to any known illness I've ever had. This is the second time I've felt this way but the first, I was over it by 6:30 am … Continue reading Growing older
Sigh. I am on the edge of 50. I remember as a kid imagining what I'd be like at 21, but beyond that, I don't think I built any kind of fantasies, goals, or images of life beyond that golden age. Yet, here I sit (much to my health's dismay), twenty-eight years / sixty pounds … Continue reading 10 of 40 – One Step Closer to 50
(I'm on week five of The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron. This is what came from yesterday's Morning Pages.) Epiphany - the sudden clarity of thought that exposes the deeper truth. I have epiphanies as I'm sure you do as well. You may have been wrestling with a problem, a decision that had to be … Continue reading Dear Me,
Alright - major life happening number two is this Saturday. Woot. Once that's out of the way, I'll take maybe another week or so to re-spawn as they say in Nerd Fitness. I've got to figure out the new plan as I will no longer be an "I" but a part of a "we". There's … Continue reading Almost There
I've felt too much over the last two months and now I can't feel much of anything. Well, there is that slow simmering anger that seems to find new and interesting ways to show up. The cause of which I'm reluctant to write about lest it be read by the current regime thus leaving me … Continue reading I Can’t Feel my Feelings Anymore
Uh, yeah. Sinus pain, runny nose. Nasal swelling so tight I can feel my pulse through my nostril up to behind my eye. Wake up to go to the bathroom (because of course, in my effort to live healthier, I'm drinking ALL the water) at 1:47 am. Brain decides since I'm up, it should share … Continue reading 1:47 AM to 5:30 or so