Camp NaNoWriMo – I have a Nowata Press cabin set up for anyone who’d like to join. Look for me or the cabin and send a note. I’m Satin Sheet Diva in my NaNo world as well.
Listening to the audio of the most recent Desire Map workbook by Danielle LaPorte and what do you know, she quoted a comment I’d submitted from the first time I Desire Mapped. I almost drove off the road. To hear my name spoken, my comments repeated by someone I’m fangirling over was just, WOW. I’m all tingly. If you haven’t checked her out, she’s fast becoming the only person I’m going to listen for when it comes to spiritual growth.
What I’m telling you next is purely because I want outside validation – won’t matter if no one chimes in because I’m going to do what I want to do with or without the outside deal, but I’m learning to tell my truth out loud and the truth is, I still crave outside validation. Go figure. An introvert who craves group buy in. (shakes head). Whatever. I’m going to release this idea of what I “should” be doing with my money and instead, do with it what’s going to make me FEEL relief, less stress, and way less guilt. I’m going to dump everything toward my debt for the month of April. No shoes, no $40 – $50 happy hour tabs, or dinners out when there’s plenty of food in the frig. I HATE owing money. HATE it. I was debt free except my student loans about two years ago, but I put myself right back in just over my head when I decided I wanted a wedding versus a small dinner party after a quick ceremony at the courthouse. Sigh. But what’s done is done and I’m done kicking myself over the juggling act that ensued as I incurred more debt when I moved, more debt when my husband moved, more debt when my daughter needed help with tuition, more debt when I got the notice that I still owed taxes from years ago, more debt when I got the notice that no, I hadn’t paid that parking ticket. SIGH!!!
I HATE THE WAY DEBT MAKES ME FEEL. So, I’m DOING something about it. ‘Nuff said.
Good grief – WordPress has flipped the script yet again. What really is so wrong with leaving my buttons and such WHERE THEY WERE?!! What’s with this constant updating of everything? It doesn’t make it better just different and sometimes, different is not needed. I promise. Ugh.
So, what’s good in your life right now? Maybe if you focused on that, more of it would show up. Just a thought.